BooooooN!!!

While people happily making money from their popular blog, I am happy because thanks to all of you… My blog breaks 2,000 HITS !!!! Since few months ago and very thanks to all of you !!

Perhaps the topics I’ve been talking lately were too hot or sendimental? Haha.. The blog stat shows that I got the weekly SECOND HIGHEST visit from all of you (updated on 10pm so far) which is 187 views for this week compared to the second week some time ago with the highest visit of 188 views !! That’s only 1 view behind!!

Well … Anyway thanks to all of you for you caring and support throughout these days… I will stay alive (not committing suicide… lol)

Watching a movie at these moments aren’t right, but I couldn’t help it as it is needed to destress. Well… It did!

I like a lot of movies, but this is one of the special ones. It talks about the main character normal boring life and one day he hears voices narrating his actions. The voices do not exactly controls his actions but accurately narrating it with bombastic vacobularies. He is in a book, currently still in the writing process of an author.

Just not long after, he hears that the narrator is going to end the main character’s life, aka. killing him. Not knowing the purposes and reasons he starts to look for the source of the voice while taking a break from his own boring life and making differences.

A nicely written movie, with great casts, great acting. I like both Emma Thompson’s messy author’s look and Will Ferrell’s ordinary auditor’s appearance.

Kinda take a break from my own life, and start viewing things differently.

Thanks for your support!

好了，照片我还没有得到。但是奇怪的梦却做了一个。就决定告诉你们吧。。。

最近我的心情迈入低潮相信大家有目共睹，其中一个原因我一直都知道的就是，自卑和自信不足。刚刚发了个梦，看到我的同房兄弟正在进行着面试，为他下一年的学会进行筹委的选择。他，将会是一名社长。而我，明年会是个什么呢？

况且他是别人哀求和苦苦的挽留，要他成为下一届的社长。而我，就算作了什么，有任何人记得吗？ 

我不知道。或许我内心深处有那么少许的嫉妒，但是我觉得我自卑的心情更多、更大。他，是多么的风趣，是多么的有才能。我，就只生活在一个背影下。我有的，他应该都有。而他有的，我很多时候都没有。我很努力的学习，学习他的一点一滴。我无法做我自己，因为我自己是不存在的。我为我自己的自卑觉得无药可救。。。

我有时很恨我自己。。。真的很恨我自己，为什么我就不能像他那样？

我很困扰。。。不知道你们是否有过相同的感觉？

Haha.. We went to a lot of places to celebrate Joe’s birthday… hmm … haha … well … How to say? After much celebration we decided to go for supper at City Harvest where we met Alson and his rented lorry and there we go!! We spent the whole night visiting graveyard… airport… reservoirs… etc etc… Walao !! So syok!! Just got back to my room around 6am.

So? Will talk more after I get those photos!! Hehehe…

Hey guys and girls! Thanks for supporting my blog from time to time and this is the time to repay you all! Last summer I had a great time doing community service project in Ho Chi Minh city and it was really a WONDERFUL and SUPERB experience knowing people from diverse background and doign meaningful stuff together. I believe you had seen some of my photos taken in Cambodia and Vietnam. So why not spending your holidays with more meaningful projects like this? 

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I know my recent breakdown has receied a huge response among my circle of friends. No worry! As log as you can still see me typing here, that means I’m not keeping everything to myself and I’ll still be alive…

I’d like to thank those who approached me and showing support… haha… I’m ok lar !!! Just complaining a bit onli… To thank you all … more random photos for now…

 the bear she’s holding was my gift to Cambodia, last trip that I made I brought together with a bag of toys that I collected from my family and friends and relatives … Because I realised that they seriously need more of those stuff than us… Glad that I initiated it and brought it there…

that’s my friend showing my name on the paper… haha.. i was so touched when i saw that… though i nevr asked him to identify me but he did in the end… i just wish i could domore for thos kids…

  FOC picture… Lit Ting eat Medicine lah !!

 memories…

 omg… it was so gay … hahaha … was a radio DJ … i missed those days..

sick days…

 my event last year…

i was a marching choreographer too … hahaha … DUN PRAY PRAY !!!

my first roadtrip with 2 friends in Form 6, after STPM, learning how to spend RM200+ in 1 week .. we manged to do it !! omg… (KL-ARAU-KANGAR-ALOR SETAR-KUALA KEDAH-PENANG)

A PROMISE THAT I WISH TO KEEP – i really want to go back to visit him … T.T, Tay Ninh, Vietnam

最近我有很多话说。。。因为本身烦恼多，也变得比较爱投诉了。。。

其实我很久之前就很想说着一些话了，因为我觉得这里的大学生都缺乏一种态度。就是自动自发+为别人着想。不是的。我不是说以上两种态度都没有出现过，只是本大学生都缺乏同时两样态度，就是自动自发的为别人着想。通常他们会为本身的利益而自动自发，这是好事。他们时不时也会为别人着想。。这也对。可是有时候令我非常痛恨与愤怒的是往往他们不会站在别人的角度去想。。。

就拿几个例子来说，刚刚搞完了一个生日派对。本来是一件很高兴的事，而我也不会因为任何的事弄到我不高兴。但是我不得不说，在收钱的时候是我最头痛的时候。在我骂人之前，我想要感谢那些有付钱给我的人。因为你们哪种自动自发的态度让我十分感动。其他的我不知道你们是真的忘记，还是蓄意的。但我想提一提的就是，大家都是大学生。大家都是一样的。蛋糕玩具等等东西并不是免费赞助的。来玩也好，看也好，给不给面子也好，就当给主办单位一些薄面。我开口也没有问题，想刚才一样，我也不是开口了吗？但是到最后也不见得收回多少钱。难道要我们开一个档口专门收钱的才甘愿？

还有很多很多，但是我有很多事情做，说不完。就当我收不回那新币100买一个roomie的生日吧！大家高兴就好啦。但是，再多一句话，其实有link到前一个post的，就是我做了这么多，付出了这么多，不知道有“值”吗？

你们来告诉我吧。。。

English Version for NTU students

I’ve been talking a lot of crap recently. Doesn’t care it’s in Chinese or English. It’s all crap! Most probably I’ve been under stress for so long due to the chinese drama script that will due very soon and I’m still not yet done with it .. Argh ~~~ !!!

These are some words that I’ve kept to myself for long. I feel that the students HERE (by this i mean in these regions, and not particlarly an institution) are seriously lacking of an attitude – which is automatically think for others. Not that the students here do not think for others nor they won’t act automatically but it’s a combination of both. They won’t think automatically for others. (most of them) Most of the time, they do not put their feet into others’ shoes…

Take an example, I’ve just finished a bday party. It is a happy party and it was and I am happy no matter what happened. What I wanted to say is that, it has been a headache asking money from everyone. Before I started all these crap, I’d like to thank those who approached me and paid the money. It’s really a great pleasure not to begging money from all of you! Just for others, I’m not sure that you’re so forgetful even I’ve made some announcement. Please… We are all students. You are a student and I am a student too! Think! It’s already a headache for the organiser of a party to organise it while all the stuff are not free… Hello?! We got no sponsor from SingTel nor Starhub… We need money to buy stuff !!

Do you really want us to open a special counter o collect the money before you start eating the cake?! Com’on!! Be more considerate ok??

There are more to say but so far so good. I’m done ’cause I need to settle other stuff now. Well, after crapping so much, it’s good to say i feel that it’s worth to spend SGD100 for my roomie in exchange for a happy party. But relating to my previous post… … DOES IT SOUND WORTH TO OTHERS??? For whatever that I did, I have no regret. Just that DOES IT LOOKWORTH FOR OTHERS OR I AM JUST CRAPPING STUFF ???

You tell me…